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I’ve been a full-time working mom. Everything I’m saying here isn’t meant to knock that choice. No matter what we do in our day to day, there’s scrutiny and penalty.

If you stay home there’s the judgement about what you do in a day, why you don’t contribute to your family financially, and so on. If you work there’s judgement about priorities, what you might miss out on, and so on. Either way, you can be painted into the worst kind of corner by people and their opinions- if you allow it.

Please know that I am not saying anything here to make mommas who work outside their homes full-time feel criticized for that choice. I wouldn’t do that. I am simply going to share my gratitude for the place I’m in now.

I hit the jackpot with my job. I work with an incredible group of people, and have a boss who gives me the flexibility I need to work the way I need to. That’s not a small thing. After finishing Grad school, I felt awkward thinking about applying for jobs. How would I explain the big gap in my resume? Would people take me seriously after taking time to be home?

Before I finished school, my boss was my intern supervisor and he asked if I’d be interested in continuing on in some capacity after graduation if I could do most of my work from home. Umm, YES! Again, I hit the jackpot, and I don’t take that for granted.

The last few weeks I’ve been doing more things that require me to go into work for longer stretches than usual, and I have really enjoyed them. I had so much fun presenting at our mediator training, and am so excited about everything I got to learn at a conference I attended.

At the end of those days, the smiles on the faces of my kiddos made me even more thankful. I’ve been thankful for the work and the experience I get to have at my job. After the last few weeks, I’m even more thankful for all the ways I get to be there for my babies. There were two days I didn’t get to see Ethan or Joshua until I got home at the end of the day. When I walked in and hugged them, I was reminded of what it’s like to miss them, and I’ll be honest- I’m not a fan!

If anything, the last few weeks have made me more grateful for everything in my life. A boss who sees me and gets the phase of life I’m in, co-workers who are some of the best people I’ve ever gotten to work with, and babies I get to pour into during a season I’ll never have again.

I hope your days are filled with people and opportunities than fill you with a deep sense of gratitude. My heart is so full thinking about all I’ve been given. My cup runner over!