At the start of year 32 of my life, I had to face some things. These things had very little to do with the things around me, but really had to do with how I see myself and my value.
Somewhere along the way, I forgot that I’m a person with needs. Those needs should be met absent of guilt.
I realized my clothes were falling apart at the seams and didn’t fit. I realized that I wasn’t taking care of my body beyond giving it the minimum of what it needed to make it through each day.
It’s hard to see you deserve more in the thick of it. It’s hard to think about spending any energy to take care of yourself when you spend all your energy caring for others.
It’s hard to spend money on things just for you when there’s always something else you need to spend money on. Those things seem more important. Those things matter more than anything you could consider wanting.
Here’s the thing: that’s what I told myself was true. That didn’t come from any place besides me. That said that I wasn’t worth the time, energy, or money.
One day I decided I could try something. A friend had been posting about Ever skincare for a while. My face was breaking out and developing other issues, and Dove soap wasn’t cutting it anymore. I messaged Morgan, and she walked me through options. No pressure. She had no idea what it took to send that first message, but she somehow cared the same.
Next, clothes. The mom of one of my daughter’s best friends own a local boutique. I have and always will be passionate about supporting local businesses. I started buying things at her store. Ashley makes it fun with after dark parties and new inventory, and she does it all for a fraction of the cost most boutiques sell the same items for. I now have great quality clothing that I feel cute in.
These things may seem small, but they were so big during a critical time for me. They served to show that I deserved to have good quality things. It reminded me of my inherent worth. It reminded me that in the chaos and run around, I mattered.
Do you ever feel like that? Do you ever stop to think about whether or not your needs are being met? If you don’t, give yourself the permission to consider and act.
Now I have great skincare and makeup that has been incredible for my body and face. I have a closet full of clothes that fit and are cute. All of this makes me feel good about me. There’s no shame in feeling good about you.
Everyone in your family matters- including you.